Poetry Friday: First Snow by Mary Oliver

 Linda Baie is hosting the Poetry Friday Roundup at TeacherDance.

Snow arrived after dark yesterday.  I could hear it falling all through the night and could not wait to see what the farm and valley would look like  – this, my first winter here.  The rumble of snow plows began before dawn, alerting us to  the possibilities of the day.  By the time there was morning light, there was enough snow to blanket everything in sight: the barns, house, valley, and hills all around us.

Snow continues to fall, and the landscape seems altered, magical. Gnarled old trees, a tumbled down barn in the distance, even the road that winds down our hill, through the village, and across the valley, are winter’s changelings.  I feel as though I’m seeing all that’s loved and familiar with new, more appreciative eyes.

Winter will undoubtedly come to be experienced with less celebration as the North Country months of endlessness go by.  At the moment, however, I am reveling in first snow.

First Snow by Mary Oliver

The snow
began here
this morning and all day
continued, its white
rhetoric everywhere
calling us back to why, how,
whence such beauty and what
the meaning; such
an oracular fever! flowing
past windows, an energy it seemed
would never ebb, never settle
less than lovely! and only now,
deep into night,
it has finally ended.
The silence
is immense,
and the heavens still hold
a million candles, nowhere
the familiar things:
stars, the moon,
the darkness we expect
and nightly turn from. Trees
glitter like castles
of ribbons, the broad fields
smolder with light, a passing
creekbed lies
heaped with shining hills;
and though the questions
that have assailed us all day
remain — not a single
answer has been found –
walking out now
into the silence and the light
under the trees,
and through the fields,
feels like one.


A month away…


Victoria & Albert Museum, London

I had just about settled into my new life on the farm, when it was time to pack up and leave for a long stay with my parents in London.  They are in their nineties now, ailing, and my visit was a small attempt to bridge the ocean between us – to give them the kind of day to day care and company that the ocean gets in the way of.

I left the green of our valley just as cornstalks were being mowed down, and the leaves were beginning to make their slow evolution towards Fall’s golds and reds.  It was weirdly warm for late September, and hard to imagine what the landscape would look like when I returned in early November.  Certainly, I would not be dressed in the sandals and shorts I wore on my drive back to New Jersey!

London, however, was enjoying its own Indian Summer when I arrived.  It rained once while I was there, and all the heavy woolen sweaters I’d packed based on previous memories of London proved to be overkill.  I wore my jacket once, my hat and gloves never.

Moving from country to city was jarring at first, but years of New York City life are hard to shake, and soon I was back to my city-wise self.  I loved the hustle and bustle of it all, the sense of movement and action, the pace.  I loved that I could pick up coffee around the corner from my parent’s house, hop on the Tube for a morning at a museum, and pick up groceries for dinner on the way home.  I loved people watching in a city the whole world seems to visit, and the diversity that brings.

I lived two lives in London: one in which I made excursions into its bright, busy world, and one in which I tended to my parents. A life of contrasts.  Somedays I spent just indoors with them, and learned much about what it means to age with dignity and independence.  And somedays I spent absorbed in what London has to offer: rambling walks, cavernous museums, a cup of tea looking over a tangle of buses, cars, and people.

And then I came back home:green pastures, but the leaves were off the trees and skies were a bleak, Novembery grey.  It was time to get our storm windows up, and the porch furniture back in the barn, to bring stack loads of wood into the house, and scout for the last of the kindling before it is buried by snow.

The valley is quiet and still, only the geese make their presence known as they fly south.  Grass crunches when I walk, and the only sounds at night are Sophie’s sighs and the clicking and whooshing of the fire in the wood stove.

A month away…and I’m glad to be back home.

Poetry Friday: Blackberry-Picking by Seamus Heaney

All around us, corn fields are being mown down.  In years past, I would be in New Jersey at this time of year, back in the world of teaching and the happy, hectic life of Room 202.  On the Fall weekends we were able to make it back to the farm. we’d take some note of the shorn fields, but our attention was focused on the glory of upstate New York foliage.

Starting this past Monday, a cold and rainy one at that, and continuing all week no matter the hour, every farmer for miles around has been busy slicing through fields of bronze and gold.   More than once this week, I have followed one enormous truck after another, loaded down with silage bound for winter storage.  I love watching plumes of green and gold confetti float off the tops of these trucks – the last vestiges of endless days of sunshine and heat.

All summer long I’ve woken and fallen asleep to the rustle of corn, and there is now a weird stillness to get used to.   Summer never lasts as long as we wish for it to…



for Philip Hobsbaum

Late August, given heavy rain and sun
For a full week, the blackberries would ripen.
At first, just one, a glossy purple clot
Among others, red, green, hard as a knot.
You ate that first one and its flesh was sweet
Like thickened wine: summer’s blood was in it
Leaving stains upon the tongue and lust for
Picking. Then red ones inked up and that hunger
Sent us out with milk cans, pea tins, jam-pots
Where briars scratched and wet grass bleached our boots.
Round hayfields, cornfields and potato-drills
We trekked and picked until the cans were full,
Until the tinkling bottom had been covered
With green ones, and on top big dark blobs burned
Like a plate of eyes. Our hands were peppered
With thorn pricks, our palms sticky as Bluebeard’s.
(you can read the rest here.)

Poetry Friday: Conscientious Objector by Edna St. Vincent Millay

Poetry Friday is hosted by Carol Varsalona at Beyond Literacy Link

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Jeannine, at the entrance to Steepletop.

Last Friday was a special day – I traveled to Austerlitz, New York for the purposes of meeting a writer friend whose work I so admire, Jeannine Atkins, at the home of a poet whose work had been the source of inspiration and example in my youth, Edna St. Vincent Millay.

I discovered Millay sometime before high school, and although I’ve lost that original volume of poetry long ago, I can still see its pages with all of my notes and exclamations of adoration in the margins.  Millay hit all the right notes for girls like me, and all through high school and college I knew I had found a friend when that person shared my love for her poetry: poetry that was lyrical and yet spoke of powerful feelings and with a bent towards social justice.

Steepletop, Millay’s home from 1920 until her death in 1950, felt very much like a time capsule as we toured through it.  There was an intimacy and and immediacy of experience to the house, I felt Millay’s presence in every room, as though she still lived there and had just stepped out.  Photographs from her time were often pinned to the doorways of rooms, the rooms as they looked in Millay’s time – books stacked everywhere.  I loved that.

We were not allowed to take photographs in the house, although I managed to circumvent those rules by taking these two of her writing hut, which were moving in their sparseness, their focus on the purpose of such a space – the solitary pursuit of writing:

I am not generally interested in the kitchens of writers, but Millay’s came with an interesting story.  The Ladies Home Journal had proposed photographing her in this room, and this story (which you can read about, with photographs, here) made me love Millay all the more.

My favorite room was Millay’s library, book lined, with spaces to read and to write. I could have spent hours here, poring over the amazing variety of her reading appetites, and marveling at the fact that each book was still exactly where Millay had placed it.  Our guide was watching me very closely, and so I behaved myself and followed the rules for once, but here are some images I found online:

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Millay was a passionate advocate for social justice in her time, the case of Sacco and Vanzetti being the most famous, but here in her library I could see the sources for the depth of her knowledge and commitment for these causes.

So, this Poetry Friday, I share the very first of Millay’s poems that I read, the one that formed an abiding love for this particular poet:

Conscientious Objector – Poem by Edna St. Vincent Millay

I shall die, but
that is all that I shall do for Death.
I hear him leading his horse out of the stall;
I hear the clatter on the barn-floor.
He is in haste; he has business in Cuba,
business in the Balkans, many calls to make this morning.
But I will not hold the bridle
while he clinches the girth.
And he may mount by himself:
I will not give him a leg up.

Though he flick my shoulders with his whip,
I will not tell him which way the fox ran.
With his hoof on my breast, I will not tell him where
the black boy hides in the swamp.
I shall die, but that is all that I shall do for Death;
I am not on his pay-roll.

I will not tell him the whereabout of my friends
nor of my enemies either.
Though he promise me much,
I will not map him the route to any man’s door.
Am I a spy in the land of the living,
that I should deliver men to Death?
Brother, the password and the plans of our city
are safe with me; never through me Shall you be overcome.

And here is the poem set to music and sung by the peerless Mary Travers:

15 Words or Less: Tumbling Pebbles

Joining  Laura Purdie Salas for 15 Words or Less


Laura’s picture prompt made me think of the pebbles beneath our kayaks, especially of the sunlight on and movement of the water as we move downstream.

Here’s my flash draft poem:

Tumbling Pebbles

Pebbles, smooth and sun dappled,

tumble beneath the rippling water

and cartwheel down the river.


Thanks for the chance to write poetry this Thursday morning, Laura!

Celebrate: A new kind of September

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The Georgi on the Battenkill, Shushan, New York 

This has been an odd start to my September.  For the last decade or so, the beginning of September was all about the new school year at hand: committing new student names to memory, tweaking the first day of school plans, making minor adjustments to our classroom space, and buying up the hard-to-resist new books and supplies.  The focus of Septembers past was Room 202 and the life that would happen there in the year to come.

This September, there is no one, particular focus.  I am thinking and planning for many things:

*organizing much needed repairs and improvements to our old farmhouse

*continuing to research the work of shepherding and care taking sheep, and preparing the barn and pastures for the arrival of sheep next summer

*organizing trips to visit my aging parents, in their nineties now, and far away in London.  It is tricky to care for people who are fiercely independent and yet clearly in need of assistance – and yet, there I am, and this was the intention behind leaving the classroom and the wrought-in-stone school calendar in the first place

*an upstate New York winter, in a place that is, quite literally, in the middle of nowhere.

*writing: about teaching, about this new life, and the stories of my life and of my invention.

It’s a different kind of focus to celebrate…but celebrate I do.

Fire wood know how


It’s a pretty steep learning curve when it comes to preparing for an upstate New York winter, and every day presents a new something to figure out.   Take the issue of fire wood…

In New Jersey, we ordered a cord of wood that was neatly stacked by the side of the house and on an attractive hoop on our porch.  That was it.  And we could place this order anytime, even in November, for immediate delivery, and stacking was always included for an added convenience.  New Jersey is all about added convenience and immediate gratification.

Here in upstate New York, firewood is something to be calculated and planned for in June, delivered in July, and, as for stacking, you are on your own.   Since we moved here in July and I had other things on my mind in August (how to fit the contents of the old house in the farm house), I fell woefully behind in terms of wood prep.  Everyone I met said so: You haven’t ordered your wood yet? Oh, that’s not good. You’d better get on it right away, although it might be too late, already.

Then, of course, there was the issue of how much wood.  On this, my wood consultants were pretty much in agreement – six cords, at the very least.  I Googled six cords of wood just to get a visual, which just about freaked me out.  That was a LOT of wood!  But, who am I but a know nothing suburban New Jersey transplant? So the order for wood was placed.

Where are you going  put the wood?  Asked the very nice man who arrived with his first (of six) truck load.  This, at it turns out, is a problem I have been trying to address, to no avail.  There is nowhere to put a woodshed where it would be most convenient – behind the farmhouse, by the back door, where I could get at it still dressed in winter pajamas and slippers.  Everyone asked had one  opinion – storing most of the wood in one of the big barns at the bottom of  driveway and  carting the wood up as needed.  I’ve seen photographs of this driveway in winter, and no way no how could I see myself trekking up and down this incline to fetch wood, even in this fancy Kubota rtv which everyone also insists I must have:

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Well, the time for some decision making is at hand, because half the wood has been delivered and the rest is on the way. One half sits by the roadside, and neighbors are taking note every passing day.  They slow down, glance at the wood, then glance at me as I garden or sweep the porch or do anything but stack wood.  Then they smile and drive away.  I take note  this smile which I, being overly conscious of my very visible NJ license plates, perceive as full of derision.

First things first: before I stack wood, I must attend to changing those license plates.  Then, to show I mean business, I will park that Kubota right by that pile of wood.